It's been some time since I last wrote anything here,but as for an excuse I'll say that I've been very busy. In my life occurred some changes...it's like I'm awakened again from the darkness that started to shade my soul,and I say darkness I don't mean evil or something like that,just the feeling that this world doesn't deserve anything,but you see....I'm wrong again, it's not the first,and sure it won't be the last time when I'll be wrong. Someone said that the most powerfull strength within ourself is the ability to forget and to take it all from the begining. As for me,as I said long ago to someone,I'm a soul that will never be understood, I'd like to think that I've find my SoulMaiden or soul mate,but onestly at this point I'm not sure of anything...It could finish even tomorrow,but for now it's all going well and I can say that I'm realy happy,not a fake happines....I feel the real thing,and along with that it comes the subtile fear of not wanted to lose that feeling. I wanted to say that I really love,but in these days there are so few who still belive in that thing called "love" so I feel a restain for every time I'm saing it.
Ok ...I've heard it again....the most annoying words that I can't stand: "You're not normal" I hear that often and often. Everybody use that word: "normal" ,to describe a fake labeling of persons and objects. Ok, I can deal with the fact that I'm not normal if someone from this entire world can explain to me what normal is,what it means to be normal....Someone told me that to be normal you must do what the other people do. If that's the case,if all the other people will start to kill eachother ,would be killing become something normal?..after all,everybody does it. Or without my knowledge there has been created a model of "normal" behavior that should be followed by all humankind,if that's the case,then we have just become puppets controled by the designer of that model. My opinion is that "normal" has been created as a seal over our mind, to live,to behave,to do things normaly,or ordinary,when we all have the posibilities to make extraodinary things only using our mind and belives. But still,if you want to live in your "normal" worlds,please forget what you've just read,and go on leaving your "normal" lives,please do call me when you wake up....
