Akatsuki

Darkness...

2009-03-07T13:57:00.000-08:00

Darkness shall eat my soul
Darkness will fill my heart
Darkness shall kill as all
Darkness,divine black light

Darkness,creature from deeps
Buried in sand of time
Darkness,no hope shall slip
There is no road,no sign

Darkness shall kill the light
The world shall fade
Darkness, ruler of night
Atonement...it's not to late

Darkness, abyss of souls
Heaven and Hell combined
Darkness, ego that calls
The moon and stars aligned

Lonly wolf...

2009-03-07T13:40:00.000-08:00

Cloak of shadow please cover me
Allow me to hide,allow me to see
Allow me to run,not to be seen
Allow me to go, away from the mean

I want to let go,escape in unknown
I want to feel free to watch the dawn
I want to watch stars, up on a hill
I want to exist, I just want to feel

I sense a chill down on my spine
Outside is cold but I'll be fine
I walk the woods,down to the river
The sky is blue,the moon is silver

The stars are gazing,look down to me
A simple mortal, a wolf so lonely
Away from the pack,to search my fate
I want some answers 'till is not to late

Darkness of soul

2009-03-01T05:00:00.000-08:00

I find myself in total darkness
No way to go,no way to hide
I hate silence,I love quitness
It does resemble with my pride

I head myself in the abys
The shadow trembles at my feets
I stole from moon a one last kiss
My heart is frosen,but it still beats

I search inside for one last spark
I only step on void land
It is so quiet,it's so dark
My thoughts are burried in the sand

I see my soul from far away
A wisper in the mist of fate
A black hole in the shining day
A crystal in the night so late

For a friend....

2009-02-24T06:03:00.000-08:00

Silence shall fall,over the hills of glory
Only dust remains where there is no story
Darkness shall swallow all humanity
While your hearts are frosen by your dignity

You have closed your eyes at the pain of soul
You are blinded and deafted only by your ego
Stop feeling sory for your lausy fate
Start rising up 'till is not to late

You think life is hard,that you are alone
Take a closer look and you might atone
For the sin of thinking that you have no friends
When they are behind you,friendship never ends

Open wide your eyes,feel the morning breeze
Take a cold shower,you ain't gonna freeze
You will just wake up ,see the rising sun
You will learn that living,it is so much fun

That's for Yuuki....good luck with that dilema of yours^^

Normality....

2009-02-20T15:52:00.000-08:00

Ok ...I've heard it again....the most annoying words that I can't stand: "You're not normal" I hear that often and often. Everybody use that word: "normal" ,to describe a fake labeling of persons and objects. Ok, I can deal with the fact that I'm not normal if someone from this entire world can explain to me what normal is,what it means to be normal....Someone told me that to be normal you must do what the other people do. If that's the case,if all the other people will start to kill eachother ,would be killing become something normal?..after all,everybody does it. Or without my knowledge there has been created a model of "normal" behavior that should be followed by all humankind,if that's the case,then we have just become puppets controled by the designer of that model. My opinion is that "normal" has been created as a seal over our mind, to live,to behave,to do things normaly,or ordinary,when we all have the posibilities to make extraodinary things only using our mind and belives. But still,if you want to live in your "normal" worlds,please forget what you've just read,and go on leaving your "normal" lives,please do call me when you wake up....

Shard of my soul....

2009-02-20T15:20:00.000-08:00

It's been some time since I last wrote anything here,but as for an excuse I'll say that I've been very busy. In my life occurred some changes...it's like I'm awakened again from the darkness that started to shade my soul,and I say darkness I don't mean evil or something like that,just the feeling that this world doesn't deserve anything,but you see....I'm wrong again, it's not the first,and sure it won't be the last time when I'll be wrong. Someone said that the most powerfull strength within ourself is the ability to forget and to take it all from the begining. As for me,as I said long ago to someone,I'm a soul that will never be understood, I'd like to think that I've find my SoulMaiden or soul mate,but onestly at this point I'm not sure of anything...It could finish even tomorrow,but for now it's all going well and I can say that I'm realy happy,not a fake happines....I feel the real thing,and along with that it comes the subtile fear of not wanted to lose that feeling. I wanted to say that I really love,but in these days there are so few who still belive in that thing called "love" so I feel a restain for every time I'm saing it.

Doubt is the beginning of fear...

2008-11-07T12:14:00.000-08:00

I don't really feel writing this down but K.S asked me to...is about doubt and what doubt can lead to. Once,someone said to me that 'doubt is the beginning of fear",and I'm starting to agree with that,since our entire life is based on choise , and with that doubt appear created from our thoughts. Not faced a doubt can spread and become quickly a fear...but what really keep us from not facing our doubts? Why do we keep avoiding these problems?...Pride can be an answer but not only this,there is a lot more, by confronting a doubt there is the risk of making the wrong choise,and sometimes the price is just to much and the risk is not worthed,so.....I guess we'll always have our doubts kept hidden in ourself

Why and What..questions without answer:-<

2008-09-26T06:28:00.001-07:00

Why....why is this happening...Why do they not belive when all you wish is to shout what you have to say.... Why nobody belives you when you say you're in love....in a mater of facts they think you joke or worst,that you're a liar....what can you do then you love and you know that you may never recive it back....What can you do when doubts about people you care about,or even love,are starting to sorround you,how can u escape from them? These questins are all reasons saying: "don't get involve"...but still what can you do when you feel inside you the need to do all thouse things...we can't control our emotions,we bearly restain our actions from doing things that we'll surely regret it later.
And the question remains: What can you do........

Quotes...

2008-08-20T05:14:00.000-07:00

Quotes.....a little bit of wisdom

_"You cannot change your fate; however, you can rise to meet it."
_"Like children who kept playing after the sunset, we kept finding ourselves surrounded by darkness."
_"There is no such things as a perfect person. That is why we can't live alone."
_"Miracles aren't something that just happen. You have to make them happen."
_"We are nothing like God. Not only are our powers limited. We sometimes become the devil himself."
_"What a sweet, sorrowful thing love can be."
_"People who want happy endings have to write their own."
_"When I was young I used to think the world was a happy place. Then I learned the truth: that nothing is fair and everything you love gets taken away."
_"If you only face forward, there is something you will miss seeing."
_"If I were the rain that bind together the earth and the sky, who in all eternity will never mingle, would I be able to bind the hearts of people together?"
_"Death is certain, the hour is not."
_"There is happiness for those who accept their fate, there is glory for those who resist their fate."
_"If you aren't remembered, then you never existed."
_I know that we can be foolish and make mistakes and we get hurt so easily. But with each mistake, we improve ourselves and with each wound, we don't want to be hurt again. We keep moving on. We cherish the past, the present, and the future."
_"When coincidence seems to convenient, I prefer to call it fate."

Guilty on purpose..

2008-08-19T12:40:00.000-07:00

Guilty on purpose..

Some time ago I spoke with a friend of mine, she was troubled by a thing: she had the impression that she's always wrong in everything she does and she doesn't know the reason. The truth is that sometimes we want to be wrong,and we do things wrong. Why? For the sake of others of course...even if we don't to admit it. And why that happens you may ask,well she answered to that question by herself:"I care for others more then I care about me..." Actually we are willing to take the guilty upon ourself and support its consequence for one person that we care about expecting from that person to do the same someday....
P.S:Temari is true what you said:"what doesn't kill u it makes you stronger",but remember that sometimes the scars will make you wander if it wasn't better to die....
One last advice for you...keep on smiling even if you feel like crying,just smile and if you can't do that for you do it for me........

Tree of dreams...

2008-08-18T12:31:00.000-07:00

Tree of dreams....

Nature....is the last thing that helps me finding myself and as I sit on the grass thinking at nothing and in the same time at everything,i fill a chill down on my spine in the same time when the warm summer wind blows into my face. I close my eyes for a second and i raise my head to the sky where the sun spreads his light into my brown eyes. Suddenly the sun begins to vanish from the inside out,or at least that i thought the first time,then i realized that it was just a leaf,a pour leaf stolen by the wind from its tree. Is strange how much leafs resemble with our dreams. We can think of ourself as tree which is the most beautiful when we are innocent kids and as we age,dreams just fly away from us taken by reality, i mean how many of us didn't dream to go on the moon for example. That dream is long gone as the cruel realty come over us shaking our tree so hard that we actually could see how our dreams fled from it's roots ending up on the cold soil,the soil that will be their grave...
Anyway,a small amount of leafs survive during the life kept alive only by our hope which only keeps them tied to us, being unable to prevent it from rusting slowly,to turn red,and eventually fall,and in the end,when we reach at the end of life the tree itself is falling down and all it remains are memories of fulfilled dreams,flowers that blossomed a long time ago and their smell is still in the air.....

Atonement..

2008-08-18T00:20:00.000-07:00

Atonement
Sorrow and tears fall down my face
My eyes are trembling in total disgrace
It's spark is gone and I don't know where
I search for light in total nightmare.

The night surrounds me in an invisible cloak
I try to escape but I'm caught in a hook
I shout for help but no one can hear me
They are all gone,where they can be?

I'm all alone drowning in tears
I see only black but I feel no fear
Waithing for something,someone to appear
But it's an ilusion,it's only tears..

I don't know why but I feel a chill
It's a mirage or it's something real
I feel no pain but my heart beats faster
It's like a race,every seconds matters.

I release myself from those rusty chains
I start to run fast heading to nowhere
I still have my hope,my reason to fight
I will not give up,Ill search for the light

I finally wake up,it was just a dream
Sweat is on my face,going down the chin
I keep haveing this nightmare,every night and day
Shall this be my punnish for my sins today?...